Brothers and Sisters
Ave Maria Purissima!
I was browsing with pictures yesterday and I came across my ordination pictures, though it has not been that long, it felt like it. I remember before my ordination as I was eating my breakfast all of a sudden, I could not breathe…hehehehehehe….I felt like my buddies, an hour before they tie the knot, they get all sweaty and nervous, and then cry!
I asked myself before my ordination…. This is it Lord, is this going to be my life? I took a deep breath, and went on to the church. As the choir welcomed the celebration with such angelic voice, I began to cry. I felt like the whole church was cloudy, I can’t see anything. My focus was on that cross. As I came closer to HIM, I was in awe that after all this, my life is not going to be the same ever again. I utter with humbleness: “Here I am Lord, I come to do YOUR will”. Such powerful phrase. I said it with love, but not fully understanding what it meant to me as a person, in to my life as a server, and my dreams as a human being. Changes drastically came in to my life. Challenges were overflowing. I had to choose between my career and my vocation. All the lures needed to be replaced with sacrifices. Rules were established. I needed to live a life of simplicity and poverty. It was definitely a drastic change to me. I took it one day at a time, but it felt like I lost everything in one day. I abandoned my family so that I can learn how to be dependent on GOD. Depression arises. Questions came in to my life. I asked myself if I was doing the right thing. I am telling you it was like the first 2 weeks of marriage, asking if I marry the right person. The more I closed my eyes, the more I can see pain, suffering, and challenges. Though during that moment, I was going through multiple trenches already. I was isolated from my friends.
This was my daily life during the early stage of my vocation. During that time of turmoil, I hang on to what Beloved Ingkong always tell us; to trust in HIM ONLY. After our night prayer, I solemnly asked HIM if HE could guide me with my vocation as I do truly love HIM. I asked HIM to take everything from me, all of it, my dreams, my ambitions, and my plans. I asked HIM if HE could live inside my heart and be the one to maneuver my life. I am innocent on what HE wanted me to do. Who am I to deny that I was called to serve HIS altar. During my meditation, I was able to write this message“Let me not be parted from YOU, O most Holy Trinity. Guide me and this whole world with YOUR light of hope and compassion. To you, O Lord, I give my last breath and my soul for eternity. Amen.”
Sometimes I have to snapped myself out and remind myself that YES I am now a full pledge priest of HIS. Challenges continue to come in my way. Various trenches comes along the way to my walks of faith. I fall down. And continue to make mistakes, but always learn from it. Of course through the sacarament of confession and deep meditation, I am able to ask for the love and mercy of God. The beauty of accepting pain, failure, and imperfectness, is to be able to understand why certain situation in our lives happen. We need to learn how to accept our iniquities and imperfectness with love and humility. To love those who persecute and hurt you. To be obedient on the teachings of God the Holy Spirit, our Beloved Ingkong. It is the most amazing thing. I have shared this to one of my brothers in faith, that many people can talk bad things about me, they can push me behind, and be mockery of their conversation, as long as they are happy and satisfied with what they are doing, that is fine by me. At the end of the day, I have the Blessed Holy Trinity(Father Yahweh, Son Jesus Christ, and Beloved Ingkong), Mother Mary, and Mama St. Maria Virginia together with my guiding saint, I am all good with it. They are strenght. They are my life. They are my everything.
For those of you – younger generations of our church APOSTOLIC CATHOLIC CHURCH. I definitely want to invite you to learn more about our vocation as OMHS Brothers, for the ladies of course OMHS Sisters. It is an amazing journey in life. Our vocation is definitely one of a kind, as I was able to visit many seminarians and even monastery, in comparison, our formation is excellent. You can email me and I can share with you stories how my vocation and how the Blessed Holy Trinity through Beloved Ingkong and Mother Mary, and through the intercession of Mama St. Maria Virginia has change my life.
Have a blessed day everyone! Keep smiling and keep living your life to the fullest with the grace and love of Beloved Ingkong.
Until next time…..you can listen to this sone Awit ng Pag aalay sa sarili……its a great song to meditate on.
“Gumawa ka ng mga tapat at mabuting bagay sapagkat ang Diyos ay nakatanaw”.
Yan ang mga salitang namutawi mula sa bibig ng isang 18 buwan na sanggol sa isang tindero na kulang ang halaga o timbang ng langis na ibinibigay. Ang sanggol na ito ay lumaking banal at may pagmamahal sa kapwa lalung-lalo na sa mga mahihirap. Siya ay nabinyagang Ursula.
Nang siya ay 17, pumasok siya sa kumbento ng mga Kapuchino at tinawag na Veronica. Noong siya ay 34, natanggap niya ang stigma ng “koronang tinik” ng Panginoon at ang “limang sugat ni Kristo sa kamay, paa at tagiliran” noong siya ay 37 taong gulang.
Siya ay nahirang na superyora noong 1716.
Minsan ay ninais niyang makipag-isa sa pagdurusa ni Kristo sa Krus para sa ikapagpapatawad ng mga kasalanan ng sanlibutan, kaya’t nakita niya sa isang panaginip ang larawan ni Kristo na pumapasan ng Krus. Dahil dito, naranasan niya ang napakasakit na kislot sa kanyang puso. Noong siya ay pumanaw, nakitang nakaukit sa kanyang puso ang larawan ng Santa Krus.
Namatay siya sa Città di Castello subalit ang kanyang mga labi ay hindi naagnas…magpahanggang sa ngayon.
Ngayong araw ay ginugunita natin ang kapiyestahan ni Santa Filomena ng San Severino, Italya. Siya ay lubos na pinapaniwalaan ng mga deboto sa Ancona. Bilang paglilinaw, siya ay iba sa Santa Filomena na ang kapiyestahan ay Agosto 11.
Walang masyadong impormasyon ang nalalaman tungkol kay Santa Filomena maliban sa kanyang mga larawan na isang dalaga na may hawak na bulaklak ng kamya, minsan ay tatlong palaso o dahon ng oliba at latigo.
I rejoice and I am glad because we now have an official blogsite!
